Atreyu Blue Tshirt

I wish I could get a t-shirt of my favorite bands like Life House, Coldplay and such! Maybe one of these days, better if that would be in preparation in going to a concert >:)

Yet our grandparents aren’t young forever. Then and again, there will always come a time that we will be the ones to take care of them. I’m not ready for that part, but I figured as early as now I can make preparations. Fortunately, I found a good website to start with which is http://www.parentgiving.com.

Assistance in taking care of parents

To be honest, I’m clueless. But it’s great because this site has guides and they even have tools and comfort products that help big time in aiding our elders.

A bed wedge is one of those things that may help elders a lot since it provides them ease and not only to them but to us as well. This is great because then, they would not have troubles in sleeping and have the best comfort while resting. But wait, there’s more. In the website I shared, an inflatable bed wedge with cover is available and it’s for an affordable price!

Inflatable Bed Wedge With Cover

So, having second thoughts of getting something for our elders is not an option! Seeing as their products are really affordable. I will surely take not of this

You know, that feeling that you know you can do it but there are just too many of them you can’t handle them all? I always get this feeling. I just know I can do it but always end up in a mess or running away. And it’s bad

Then again, I shall always try and try. I sometimes blame my brain for having too many thoughts and ideas and that would have been great if it were at the right time and not when I’m about to sleep or when I’m at work.

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, “I’ve got something to tell you.”

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking.

“I want a divorce.” I raised the topic calmly.

She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, “Why?”

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, “You are not a man!”

That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew, a woman at my work that I had developed feelings for. I didn’t love my wife anymore. I only pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement, which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce that had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that for that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door each morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife’s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. ”No matter what tricks she tries, she has to face the divorce,” she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, saying, “Baba is holding Mama in his arms!” His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly; “Don’t tell our son about the divorce.”

I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the every day workout made me stronger.

“Our son came in at the moment and said, ‘Dad, its time to carry mum out.’”

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at that moment and said, “Dad, its time to carry mum out.” To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, “I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.”

I drove to the office and jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind… I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, “Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.”

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. “Do you have a fever?” She said.

I moved her hand off my head. “Sorry, Dew,” I said, “I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart.”

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: “I’ll carry you out every morning until deaths do us apart.”

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, and the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real and happy marriage!

I re-read this last night because Christian mentioned it. So I read it to him, it reminds us a lot on not to forget the people we love – we must hold on as we’ve always promised because we’d never know what can happen tomorrow.

At some point, most toddlers climb out of their cribs. This is potentially quite dangerous. If your toddler is beginning to show signs of this, do not wait. Look for toddler beds that you can often simply transfer the baby mattress to the toddler bedding set. A good bed has special barriers to ensure that a toddler does not fall out. Wall beds have a barrier on one side; the other side faces the wall.

How to Childproof Your House

It is also important to secure your medicine and toiletry cabinets. This can be accomplished with a few simple locks. Also install a toilet lock. Do not forget to buy some plug protectors; push them into every open wall socket. Clear plug protectors are best, as they do not attract a child’s attention.

One of the most important things you can do to secure your home is to put protectors over your stove top knobs. This will ensure that your curious toddler cannot turn on the burners.

Childproofing your home is the most important thing you can do to ensure your toddler’s safety. Utilize these simple recommendations, and both you and your child are sure to sleep easier.

Johnny Air Plus

Also, my it’s my first time to use Johnny Air Plus for shipping. As we all know, most Amazon good stuff are only available for US Shipping. This is why I was able to buy this time from Amazon, I researched and found out about their service. It was so convenient for me as they had a branch in SM Megamall which was very near to me. All you have to do is email them and they will answer you promptly and they are very friendly

Motorola Flipout MB511

What I got is yet another gadget. Heehee. I liked it because it looked cute! However, it won’t be mine as I decided to give it to mum since I don’t really need another phone. I can always use it whenever I want anyway <3

It’s nice to know I can buy from Amazon hassle free with Johnny Air Plus <3

From my last post, I was going here and there but not really so much since all in all I only had about 4 interviews. I stopped then, because I felt tired. Haha. And also because I was fervently wishing I’d get hired by the 2nd one I had an interview at.

Then, zap! After two weeks, I did get hired in there! And now I’m trying to adjust here and there because being the night buddy that I am I have to become a morning person. My schedule has to start from 6:30 AM on wards up to the afternoon.

So far, I’m doing okay. But everyday, I realize I still need to learn more even with the things I already know about what I do. I hope everyday becomes more exciting!

Needless to say, this is why, I totally stopped blogging. In anyway, I was always bad at this ever since I started oDesk and stuff XD But I thought of posting because after all, I want to blog, still, even I should have gotten sleep instead.

What can I say? Life is surprising in so many ways, it comes the least you expect it <3 Like falling in love.

One Step at a time

I guess we carry this until growing up (yes even if I don’t get an inch taller anymore!) And it’s like with the song “One Step at a Time” as well (not sure if that’s the exact title, but it has the line okay? Although the song’s meant for the heartbroken.

From the last time I posted here, I’ve been applying here and there and going to Ortigas so often that I’m starting to get used to commuting. And I know that it’s yet another silly fact about me that it’s just now that I truly made things on my own while outside! Hoho. There were some laughable moments though and instances I end up walking to SM Megamall (since it’s the only place I really know) I memorize places through photographic memory unfortunately but it’s good somebody invented Google Maps!

I wanted to go on the mall alone as well however it seems un-fun without someone else to walk with at least while window shopping. Meh. Nevertheless, this is accomplishment for the little lady. So often, people (especially jeep drivers) mistake me for a student. Haha.

Not only does this “one step at a time” apply in going places alone but also in life. I hardly feel nervous in interviews, I’m more nervous on how to get to the places most of the time. I do know at times that it’s not for me, especially when I see or hear what they say (it makes me want to learn more and study more). I experienced feeling down as well, which is, pretty normal! I guess I’m a bit picky with the job I want. Heehee.

I’ll soon get there I know, so I’m taking my little steps. And I know, there’s still too much to learn – the things I know, they’re not even about halfway nor one-fourth-way.

On another note, I also updated my lonely pink blog. At the end of the day I still can’t help but blog in it my personal thoughts.

i do not see it so clearly
but all I know is I will someday
and i know this poem is a bit silly
but it also inspires me all through this day

no copy pasting, no google searches
i Only need my Heart and faith
I will heal and be that one who reaches
may it be long for me to wait.

This goes not just for the lovers but also for friends and all types of relationships. It’s indeed awesome to have so much similarities, but it’s even more awesome knowing you have different feelings, ideas and many more – yet you are binded like a tattoo on one’s skin (or even greater).

Through these differences, we learn how to accept and sometimes we learn how to adjust. I learned too, that you cannot just push yourself to be like a person, just to be likeable. You do not need to please everyone, there are naturally differences, and people who truly want to be with you and reach you would only understand yours. Maybe others even see this as “different” because others only know you when they need something…but why bother.

Everyone was made different, even twins, even you in the parallel world and truth be told – this is something to love. Differences should not be a barrel, it should give you way. No matter how different you and others maybe, people who appreciate these differences, you will easily know. And you too will know who these special people are, because you, yourself will see so much difference yet these things, they give you the path to communicate with the heart.