If must have guessed, like all my posts I am back with a blast because I failed to sleep (must be those chocolates, I guess D:) On the bright side, it’s also great since it means I am now making a post for February…and not just a yearly post! LOL!

I decided to just get up after I noticed myself staring at the wall – just thinking and also missing my babies in heaven. That’s why I hate not being able to sleep. Once I get tired of doom scrolling on reddit, my brain reminds me of what could have been if I they were here. It’s been 3 months now, and on nights I cannot sleep I think about Kofuku, Patik, Kiri, Batik, Kokonut and Kurdapya :< Sometimes even Tora. I wonder if they miss me too, or if they’re watching over me.

And then I would keep myself busy with chores. I get tired a little but a little doomed because I remember how my sleeping schedule is so messed up again – if I fall asleep, I’ll definitely wake up in the afternoon and then I will fail to sleep again until the morning…and then the cycle goes.

Then I think about all the things I could write and do on my blog which never come to fruition, life.

At least I blogged today. One step at a time!